it wasn’t love at first sight to say the least. but i can’t imagine my existence without him. i could do the usual and say that he give me butterflies when he kisses me and fills me up with joy and makes my palms sweat and everything associated with boys and young love. but this is different. he is the sole purpose of my happiness. of course i had a life before him without him.. but now i can’t see life without him. this sounds clingy but i dont care. he’s everything i want and need. he’s the first thing i think of when i wake up and the last thing before bed. i could honestly lay awake just to see him sleep and not miss a minute of it. the way he kisses me holds me looks at me. everything. i love it all. i love every single molecule and dna strand and all 46 of his chromosomes. this boy is more than my boyfriend; hes my best friend. most people say i feel so strongly for him just because i gave him my virginity to him, but its deeper than that. i’ve given every single part of me. i don’t care how old i am and how foolish this sounds. its the way it is. i love him. it makes my day to see him smile and i’d do everything in my power to fix his frown if he ever had one. he’s more than just a good looking guy, hes : smart, funny, genuine, energetic, charming, enjoyable, irresistible, delicious, caring, sensitive, tough, lovable, and everything else that makes a person fall in love. i dont care. i dont care. i dont care. hes my everything, and its the scariest thing because without him i have nothing. i love you baby. Thursday will be 6 months and probably the most memorable 6 months of my life. i pinky promise . forever. <3
i swear. she’s over protective, old school and a stage five clinger. don’t get me wrong; i love her with all my heart and would never take her for granted. but damn, like let me live my life. if i want a tattoo/piercing/dye my hair, i should be able to because dammit its my fucking body and she’s not the one who will have to deal with it. i just want to live my life and be able to sleep wherever i want with who ever i want whenever i want it. i want to be able to eat what i like when i like and not downstairs at the table all the damn time. to be able to do whatever i want to my body since it is MY body. i don’t understand what’s so complicated about that. i know my parents want whats best for me and to protect me but in 762 days there will be nothing stopping me. i love you mom, but just set me free.